141... tired lol

I worked out again for 141 minutes and it really made me tired. As much as I want to increase my 5k time I want to lose weight more. I'm so close to being overweight I can taste it-- really tired of still being obese. When I look in the mirror I don't feel obese so why is 5-7 pounds labeling me as such. Today was my second day of being drenched leaving the gym. I am not sure why it takes that much exercising for the sweat to come down like that. I feel like I'm working hard the whole time. I drank 3 bottles of water when I was at the gym because I was so nervous about getting dehydrated. Overall it was a pretty good workout. One night I'm going to test out that row machine. I'm nervous about injuring myself testing it out but I want to make sure I'm working out my arms too. Most people only stay on the machine for like 5 minutes. It looks like I could exercise on it for a full half hour once I get the hang of it. I can't wait to get off the not eating fruit! I miss it.

141 minutes and first Treadmill 5k

Yes that number is true. I did my first 5k on the treadmill today (46 minutes). It was a long 5k but it definitely means that I can do if I set my mind to it. I did the elliptical and the recumbent bike. I was so sweaty I even had a circle of sweat on my butt. I laughed because I've never sweat that much at the gym before but I was proud of myself. I have to make sure I stay hydrated and need to eat less sodium today. I'm debating whether I'm going back to the gym tonight. I may do a little workout but I don't know.

60 minutes and none and 42 minutes

I went back to the gym last night and jogged/walked again. I'm starting to feel it in my knees. I couldn't wake myself up this morning to go to the gym but I did use it tonight. I am finding it harder to not want to exercise especially when I'm making myself accountable for it by posting on here. I joined an online challenge to get to my goal weight by Christmas. I'm not going to beat myself up if it doesn't happen but I will stay motivated to keep going. I bombed though eating wise. I should not have bought pretzels even if they were sourdough--- too much sodium and not enough nutrition.

67 minutes

I worked out this morning and I'm kind of tired right now but I will probably be back in the gym in about an hour after I take a nap or something. I really feel the difference in my abilities on the treadmill. I'm getting less winded by the end of the 40 minutes on the treadmill. I'm confused as to whether I should add time to make it to 3.1 miles and then speed it up or whether I should speed it up and let it hit 3.1 miles on its own. I'm already at like 2.4 miles on the treadmill for my workout. We shall see. I really need to be able to run my 5k in September. It would be awesome. I ran 18 minutes out of my workout today.

So I'm not liking this whole cutting out fruit thing. It only would work out well if I went to subway every day and didn't run out of popcorn. Speaking of popcorn, I went to Sam's Club today to try to buy a new camera (another story) and thought to myself-- GREAT this would be a splendid opportunity to buy a bag of kernels for the microwave popcorn bowl I want to buy. They only had one size-- 50 freaking pounds!! You know what I'm going to do around christmas time (popcorn bowls and kernels for everyone lol). Just kidding but that was too much popcorn so I will have to settle for the regular store to buy kernels.

65 minutes, 1000cal, 9.34 miles

So I was feeling guilty for such a lame post about working out for 6 minutes. I had a pretty good sleep and exercised this morning on my elliptical. I feel relieved now. My goal today is to stay hydrated.

6 minutes

Err so today was awful exercise wise but I did go fishing this morning and did walk around some today. I wasn't feeling that great. Note to self: Drink more water than you think you need while on the treadmill. I'm so dehydrated it's not funny. I should have had something to replenish my body (because all the water just went straight through) but I couldn't think of anything--- hence feeling horrible most of the day. It didn't help that I've been silently stressing out all day. Stress + Dehydration = Moodiness.

I've realized every time I see a bikini I start getting tense like I should be there already but really if I look at it mathematically I would not be in a bikini comfortably until about 30 pounds from now. I cannot rush it but I need to make a better routine for going to the gym with my clothes, music, and nourishment.

So 70 minutes

70 minutes of butt kicking cardio. It's weird and funny to me that I keep feeling like people are surprised that I'm jogging on the treadmill. Note to self: I need to get some more workout gear especially with the amount of working out I plan to do. I feel like I'm running out of workout clothes or they aren't right. Tonight I exercised in sweatpants and a tank. It was a bad idea to wear sweatpants but I did manage an awesome workout! My cheeks were so pink it wasn't funny.

I thought my going to the gym would deter me from shopping but it hasn't. I should post the new heels I bought. I've been so excited about the idea of heels being easy to wear again that my eyes twinkle every time I see a pair. I bought some Jessica Simpson heels today. I even polished my nails as a treat to myself for working so hard.

I decided I am going to try this air popcorn popper bowl they sell at Target because I eat fat free popcorn almost everyday now. It should save me money in the long run and it will save me some calories too I think.

I did excellently with the not relying on fruit this week. I have one more week of trying to focus on vegetables to see what difference it will make for the weight loss.

65 minutes and 165

I went to the gym this morning and surprisingly jogged for 16 minutes out of my 40 minutes on the treadmill. I was so proud of myself that I was actually able to do all that. After the treadmill I did the elliptical for 25 minutes. Those last 25 minutes were brutal. Interval training takes a lot out of me. I can't wait until I get used it enough that I can jog longer to make my distance longer! I can do it!

Anywho, I jumped on my Wii Fit scale and it read 165!!!!! Yay! I was so happy to see the number to have gone done especially with all the hard work I've been putting in this week. I need to keep it up and make sure I drink more water. Drinking seltzer water is really increasing my water intake. I like the fact that it doesn't rely on sweeteners to make the flavor.

40 minutes and an hour

Last night I went back to the gym and did 40 minutes or so of exercising. This morning I went and worked out for an hour. I planned on staying there an 1.5 hours but I think I was overshooting my energy level. I may use my elliptical tonight since I probably won't be going to the gym.

I've been eating the steam the bag in the microwave vegetables. There are seasoned kinds. I might go an get some more so that I can have a good amount of them.

I need to figure out how I'm going to pack some healthy food on my vacations. I like seltzer water but I've never tried it in a can. I will look into coolers. I could pack some trail mix. Tuna would also work with the apple sauce in the cup.

New Regimen: A Year of Weight loss

So I've been working on my weight loss for a year now and am hovering over a loss of 50 pounds, which equates to about 1 pound a week. Since I have the paid in full gym membership now let's see how much easier it will be for me to lose the next 50 pounds. Last night I exercised for 40 minutes on the treadmill with 10 minutes out of it running. This morning I went to the gym and did about 20 minutes on the treadmill and 20 minutes on the elliptical. I got a cramp while on the treadmill so I went over to the elliptical machine. I haven't yet used the gym's pool but I will. I've been debating over getting a swim cap so I don't mess up my hair and have it start changing colors from the chlorine. Hopefully I can start dropping the pounds more regularly instead of a pound here or there. I will make it to my goal of doing a 5k race in September and I will not be self conscious for my vacations this summer wearing my swimsuit.

I haven't figured out the food situation yet. I'm afraid of diving into a different food situation. I know I can make more satisfying meals that include vegetables where I'm not spending everything I have to make it. I need to get a food processor to make some of the recipes.

10k on the Elliptical

Yesterday afternoon I hopped on my elliptical and did a 10k. Friday night I did 1.3 miles with half of it jogged on the treadmill. I really think I can keep up with the exercise as long as I get over the excuses. Exercising might also deter me from all the shopping that I do even if it is window shopping that I do most of the time.

I am going to work hard at eating more vegetables this week and hold off on a lot of the fruits I've been focusing on. I seem to lose the most weight when I eat more vegetables than fruits. I bought a couple South Beach Diet books because I used that the first time I lost weight and remember some of the vegetable infused recipes tasting good. I'm not too sure about eating sugar free gelatin all the time. I might settle for cucumbers as a snack or something like that.

I read a couple books about beauty. The idea "fat works on other people but not me" was starting to creep in and I started feeling a bit gloomy. I don't know some days are better than others. I'm glad at what I've accomplished but I have not progressed much in a long while.

I finally bought a swimsuit top but it is the dreaded takini that I didn't want to wear this year. Realizing that the bikini just wasn't cutting it for me this year was probably the start of the gloomy feeling and not the book but the top is cute even if it wasn't what I intended to wear. I will just have to make a vacation to wear a bikini when I reach my goal weight.

Note to self

I went to the gym finally after building up the nervousness of facing the trainer to apologize for not showing up for the session. Who is the first person I see as I'm entering the gym? You guessed it, the trainer. I quickly apologized and he acted as if it wasn't that big of a deal to him.

I fell on the treadmill. To people worrying about how much it hurts: It does hurt a bit. I hurt my leg.

54 minutes

I feel ok about my workout today. I did force myself to workout today. I've been feeling really guilty about missing my gym appointment and have not been back since. I should just go and apologize for wasting the man's time. I really need to get on the treadmill so I can start training to run for a 5k (one of the new year's resolutions). My bikini dreams still look far away but I need to get over myself and buy the top portion so I can go onto the beach looking sassy!! My best friend agreed to do a 5k with me towards September so I really should get to training. This is going to be interesting. I might get addicted to running on the treadmill. I need to get something to play music like a radio or something. The music on my glitchy i-pod is old.

52 minutes

I just got done working out. I know it's late but I really had to push myself to workout. I even put my hair in rollers so I would be killing two birds with one stone. I just didn't want to be on there but it felt good to have it done. My friend and I went walking yesterday. It was so much fun. I think we walked for hours. I need to make sure I keep eating right. Today at work I tried this pasta thing and I'm realizing I don't like pasta like I used too. It felt weird throwing the food away -- it tasted so bland. It did feel good to eat cucumbers afterwards.

None on Friday and Saturday

There was no working out on Friday or Saturday but I did exercise today. I'm not excited exactly about my new circumstances of being at my place every weekend because people don't want me around. I'll have to adjust and focus on having fun over near me. The only awesome thing is that I was tired of packing up my stuff every weekend and not having enough time to enjoy my own place for what it is, MY PLACE. My stress level was out of control when I found out the news. I was unsure about posting it on here but it is important to my weight loss because it was the reason I was too stressed out to work with the personal trainer and my ability to exercise freely no without worrying whether I'll be irritating someone.

I only exercised for a half hour so I owe myself some time tonight. I was feeling down today from being unsure of what to do. I possibly should have went to the gym but working out at my apartment is fine for today and I went grocery shopping.

75 minutes

75 minutes on the elliptical machine. One of my bestest friends called after I decided to exercise and working out turned to being a breeze. Oh my goodness. I was like the time is up?? I burned over a thousand according to the machine but I don't actually think I did but it was fun. I will be determined.... hmmm. I really want a workout buddy so I think I really need to join class when I can. This will work out!!!

Just when you think things are at its worst

Just when you think things are at it's worst something cute happens. I was sitting here all upset about people acting childish and I hear ducks quacking outside of my window. I look and see ducklings waddling with their mom and swell up with joy about life. They were so adorable. I need to see things like this more often! I love animals. I had thought before about running at the zoo. Maybe that will be one of my ultimate goals to run through the zoo as my ultimate weight loss victory. I need to forget about the people who don't really care about me and make MYSELF happy more often.

First meeting with my trainer

So I think I might really have to spend the money and take on a personal trainer. My meeting did not go as I thought it would. I was so upset during the meeting that I was fighting tears. I'm too stressed out right now. This not taking things personally thing from the offensive stuff people do is not working. I know they aren't worrying about me so why am I worried about them? Even now as I'm stressing over being stressed they are not having an ounce of thought about me so why am I worried? The trainer said it's going to be hard to lose weight if I'm stressed. He also was concerned about the lame support I have to workout-- half support was what I called it. I offer to work out with people and it doesn't happen. I know this is MY journey but it doesn't mean that it should be mostly alone. It could be he's working his way in to being a trainer but I might just be buying.

First Day at the Gym

So I had my first day and the gym in a long time. I felt a little lost for what to do so I got on the treadmill and ran/walked. I was so proud of myself for running on a treadmill in public alternating between running for 2 minutes at a time with 2 minute walking. I felt like I'm actually doing something because I remember when I couldn't even walk on the treadmill very well. I was really nervous about people laughing at me because I was laughed at by someone before while I was on the treadmill but it didn't happen. I didn't use a radio or anything. I just thought about getting to the next step and thinking about how proud I was of myself. I meet the trainer tomorrow and I'm hoping I'm not too sore with all the exercise I'm trying to accomplish.

The next step is coming up with solid meals for myself so I don't feel like I'm snacking all the time. I want to feel like I'm eating at my parents place where they have REAL food. I spent a lot of money on the gym membership so I need to stop eating at the restaurants. I borrowed a couple recipe books from the library so I could come up with ideas of what to cook for myself. I'll be happy if I can make a least like 15 things that I could alternate between so I could have a library of healthy foods. I'll make my own cook book of recipes I like. It might be a good idea to just photocopy the recipes I really like than to handwrite them. Then put them in a folder or a binder in the page protectors. So then when I think of more ideas I could just turn to my book. Handwriting them would save a lot of money though! Usually it's like 15 cents per copy. I guess it could just depend on the length of the recipe.

More Interesting News

I joined a gym with a pool! I wanted to join a gym but didn't think it was going to be possible with my budget but I think this gym will be fun. I'm getting three free sessions with a personal trainer and it's really convenient for me to get there. I didn't exercise yesterday though because my body was too sore from the exercise I did previously on Monday: .5 of a tae bo video, 60 squats, I think about 30 side planks, and some triceps. I was walking through the sore feeling at work and by the end of the workday it was hard to sit down lol. So, I'm going today with my boyfriend and I'm going to make it my mission to be confident enough to join a few classes. I want to say that I've lost more that 50 pounds in one year from starting my weight loss and I have 19 days to do it. I looked at my news year's resolution and I'm really going to be getting somewhere. I estimate that I can get to my goal weight before the end of the year.

Also something new that I tried last night: Stuffed mushrooms. I stuffed some with crab dip and some with hummus. I think I will try stuffing it with both. I'm trying to think of alternatives to eating pretzels.