Ok. I still have to admit when the backwards compliments come through it makes me feel like a failure not a success for having myself be out of shape in the first place but I want to please myself by being under 200 pounds this week. I've been working along time already and I'm not going to let some people's awful states of mind push me from what I want for myself. I want to be my own version of magazine pretty and I want to be able to do more athletic things. I definitely don't want to get diabetes or have any more problems sleeping. The park near my place has a lot of potential. There was a meeting that made my whole schedule change today but I'm still going to exercise even if it means crying through it. Need some new music for working out and the library has CDs to borrow!
I will not give up because I'm already making it towards my goal. I believe in myself. That's all that matters.