I'm just taking a pause to reflect on where I came from(left picture) and where I would like to go(right picture). Even if I took some stumbles I have not fallen back to 220 since I started the journey for myself without anyone truly supporting me 100%. Yes part of the motivation was jealousy but I'm still happy I went through with it. I still have some jealousy towards the girls that are ridiculously thin but I'm liking where I'm going in terms of my own healthy food journey. I will construct a solid frame of mind to block out the food pushers and people with their hate towards my positive healthy attitude. I also need to be mindful to not push my opinions on people. I just want to do this for me. I want to be smaller and healthier even if it means not hanging out with certain people and making new friends who accept my eating lifestyle or just being alone. I shouldn't have to justify what I'm doing to anyone.