Posting because I'm bored

The ground turkey breast naked tacos turned out great!!! No real carbs and it still tasted like tacos. I'm going to eat them until I run out of the meat. It's fairly inexpensive to make them. I opted out of using the greek yogurt (sour cream substitute) because I'm not really sure that I'm supposed to be eating it on the plan. I probably wouldn't have hurt anything considering I had little bits of rice yesterday and still lots little bits of weight. I went to Trader Joe's after going to take the Orbital Xray and had a really good time looking around at stuff that could be included on the plan. So much stuff there. My next real recipe to try is the zucchini lasagna. I was going to pick up the zucchini today but I didn't feel like it because I was not sure when I actually am going to make it. Hopefully I can find some more recipes. I keep wondering if zucchinis or radishes can be turned into chips so I can have taco salad with chips. I also need to find some more snacks to make because I really am not trying to have sucralose all the time. It's not that I don't think it's helpful for the plan. It more that it's irritating to rely on sugar to get this. I want to get rid of the feeling to need sweets.

The idea of being 119 is looking more and more appealing everyday. The party I went too I still felt self conscious about my size because I knew I was bigger than my step sisters and my outfit wasn't helping. I knew no one really cared about my size deep down but it was weird nonetheless. They are sizes 2, 4, 6 and I'm still in a size 8-10-12 after all this. Also, I went to an anime convention and felt like I would be much more comfortable if I were smaller. My outfits would look really good with knee hi socks that don't look like they are cutting off circulation. I will keep pushing to be the smaller weight. 119 is supposed to be in the middle of the normal BMI so I could go lower. I won't stop at 130 because if it's anything close to the size I am now that's not going to work for me. I need a smooth physique not ripples. If I really do get to my bikini by the summer I'm buying some gucci shoes or something with the money I saved from not buying junk to poison my body.