Meh.

I worked out-- meaning weight lifted and ran half a mile. I don't know if I really should be feeling accomplished but I do because my body is sore. I know I worked out hard even though it wasn't for that long. Hopefully I will develop the routine so weight lifting will be like checking my email or something along those lines. It was pretty interesting how comfortable it felt doing the workout even after not doing it for so long. I was able to lift 15 pounds for my biceps, did 15 pounds distributed for my triceps, and 15 for my deltoids. My weight squats were only 12 pounds and 10 pounds for the side lunges. I am afraid of exercising to the point that I can't do Zumba so I aimed to be sore but not to the point of immobility- LOL.

Trying to formulate a plan

So my friend was talking about juicing. I had seen a documentary a while back about juicing but didn't try it. Maybe now is the time? Another blog just posted about juicing. If I don't juice I think I should try planning out a least one meal a day where I can consume at least 3 cups of dark green vegetables. I usually eat spinach when I'm yearning for vegetables but I have to admit I've been slacking since my summer break started. Water is not a problem because I drink canned seltzer water, bottled water, and bottled seltzer water regularly. It will be a race to see how much weight I can lose before my summer break ends. If I can maintain in the 130s I think I would be happy for a while. Eating massive amounts of vegetables and exercising should get me there. I lost the weight for a short period without exercising so exercising should help take the rest of it off. I need to force myself to spend at least 2 days a week weight training.

Jello Jigglers 142.6

I did 2 hours of Zumba today in hopes of helping me stay fit. Every time I look in the mirror I still see jello jiggly thighs and I want to get rid of them. I'm going to formulate a plan to lose them once and for all. While shopping today I picked up a pair of True Religion jeans thinking when I got home they'd fit or be a little loose. My freaking thighs were suction cupped to the legs of the pants. I was able to zip up the pants I just wasn't able to move. There are a few things that were probably going on. One: I bought them at the thrift store so there is no telling whether the jeans are true to size. Two: I worked out right before shopping (I took a shower of course) but my legs might have still been swollen a bit from the work out. Three: I still need to lose some weight. So I've decided that I want to be able to fit or have these jeans be fitting or loose on me by Christmas. I've given up on the idea that my bikini will look perfect on me with my vortex for a belly button but I know a pair of jeans can look good on me. I did this for my Lucky Brand jeans so I can do it for these. Also, it's about time again for me to do a massive give away of all the clothes that don't fit. I keep trying to avoid it because I'm afraid of stepping out of this comfortable zone. Sigh but all is well. This is still the best I've ever looked.

Long Plateau

I'm not out of losing weight. I'm just in a long plateau. My weight is in the low 140s and likes it there. I don't mind too much that my body likes it there except that I'm still not in the normal BMI. It might me overrated and inaccurate but it was still my goal. I've been trying to alleviate some of the pressures I've been having and cutting how much I've obsessed over my weight worked some. I realized though if I want to continue dropping pounds I need to incorporate green vegetables into my diet  even if I don't feel like it. Sigh. The inner battles to add vegetables when everyone else is eating garbage.

This a picture of me from friday evening. My skin is starting to get less flabby the more I continue to workout but it's moving pretty slowly. Sometimes I feel embarrassed by the flabbiness of my skin but my gym class mates always reassure me that I'm doing just fine.

144.2

Bah. I haven't been eating well. I was doing better with losing weight not going to Zumba because I was spending more time in the kitchen and grocery. Today I'm going to revisit my healthy food list and go shopping. I started eating like my roommate and it's costing me big time. I've also started having nightmares again about my relationship issues that I haven't been able to talk to anyone about. I can't wait for my break to start so I can focus on losing weight rather than trying to just keep myself just under 140. I haven't eaten enough vegetables. TOM is giving me headaches  but I think I need to drink more water again too. I went traveling over the weekend and didn't bring anything but art supplies so I probably dehydrated myself. Alcohol is a big no go too. I thought having a couple drinks with my roommate might not be so bad but don't think it helped at all with the weight loss.

The only bright side to this week is that my weekend was fun. I will need to just eat better all the time.

141.6

Yes! It's going back down! Zumba last night, salmon for dinner, spinach and spaghetti meat sauce for lunch... Yesterday was a good eating day despite that I ate 2 large cookies-- strawberry shortcake. I want to keep going down so I can wear my catsuit soon. Thinking about buying the shorts version to it. My sister suggested opaque or patterned tights

142.6

Well staying under 140 didn't last very long at all. Yesterday I was 141.6 now I'm creeping up. Hopefully I can make it go back down although my eating until I was stuffed like a penguin didn't help matters too much. I got so irritated. I made all this food and he only ate like half a bowl of the stuff and complained about how I made it while he was just sitting there like a bump on a log asking when it was going to be finished. So I ate the pasta and then I ate his too. Mine was with 3 cups of spinach and his was plain. This is the low carb/high fiber pasta. I'm not sure I'm actually buying the low carb part but it tasted great. I should have just saved his plate to take for work instead of annoyingly eating it. Sigh. I still have meat/sauce left but I think I also ran out of spinach so I'll be running to the grocery. I'm never doing that again. Last time I made alfredo it was the same situation of me eating like that. Everything is so much better when he cooks or I just cook for myself because I won't get annoyed. I'm sitting here with a headache. Bah humbug! My stomach is pouched right now so I know my weight is not going down for a bit.