trying to be excited.

The relationship trouble really is taking a toll on my self esteem and I have to work on that... I don't know what happened to my last post... the system must be wonky. I really want to feel excited about putting on a bikini this summer whether I'm still plus size or not. My goal is to drop some more weight and then buy the bikini. It's a halter bikini top with a high waisted bottom. I saw it on another blog and loved the idea for myself. If I feel comfortable enough I will buy a regular bottom but I will let that happen when it happens. My exercise regime sucks but I will get it to where it needs to be. I want to continue dropping weight so exercise needs to be a core focus. Eating Ramen has to stop.... I stare at the broccoli and the ramen at the same time always choosing the ramen. I need it out of my apartment!