So a few things!
I joined a weight loss forum. I needed a community of people interacting about weight loss. I was really feeling like I was in a dark place for the past few days.
I did a tae bo workout from youtube tonight and I'm feeling less guilty about not working out on my elliptical.
I tried on a bikini top and it looked alright despite my still having love handles.
So my blues feels like it's lifting. It's weird to want to exercise as bad as I wanted to. I need to concentrate on eating fruits and vegetables.