Feeling like I need to start over

My body is going through so much turmoil that I'm feeling uncomfortable. I ate candy today because it was the first thing that popped into my head to fix the light headed feeling after I already ate my normal food. Why dizzy after eating? Let me mention that my junk food was previously had all been Doritos and Sun chips. It wasn't like I was eating Snickers and Skittles. I drank a diet soda too because the dizziness didn't stop. I'm actually feeling like I'm eating more than usual. Just called the doctor to hopefully see what's wrong besides me not exercising-- that means Zumba is not going to happen tonight either.

Stop telling me I don't need to lose weight

I look at my stomach and see the pounds that need to go! I'm overweight. I can feel the goal weight approaching slowly but not there yet! I need to keep on trucking even though some of my sickness has manifested into coughing and dizziness. I'm going to look into my blood sugar. I'm wondering if my junk food craze sent my body into a civil war. Sigh. It will be over soon I guess. I stopped eating from the vending machine. If I have enough energy and am not coughing everywhere I will exercise tonight after my nap. This feels a little ridiculous that my body hasn't settled itself but I do get sick a lot.

Reading "New Rules of Lifting for Women"

On the forum I joined there have been many posts about this book "New Rules of Lifting for Women: Lift like a Man, Look like a Goddess". It's a pretty good read with the post modern satire and the strength training facts blended so smoothly. I think I will try lifting heavier weights and see if that makes a difference in my weight loss. I really would be happy if I lost in between 20-30 pounds. Comparing my bulging in my future fitting dress to the flatness of Fefe Dobson's dress was enough to remind me I still have a ways to go. If hardcore strength training mixed with interval training will get me to where I want I will do that and keep Zumba for my fun gym activity. If protein really satiates hunger for longer I will start eating at work. It might make my moods better. Greek yogurt dip and some veggies in the morning might be the ticket for my protein fix.

getting over it

Still sick but finally able to work. I'm so tired though. It feels as if this is never ending. I kept thinking about Chick-fil-A and $5 Subway footlongs. Hungry much? Hopefully I'll just choose the Subway because I feel like I make a better choice with that and then I can also stop by the grocery to get some fruits and vegetables for the weekend. Probably not exercising again today since I'm really tired. I think it's the medication I'm taking-- but I don't remember drowsiness as a side affect.

Still Sick

Blah. My eyes are sore but I guess I'm a glutton for punishment because I'm still awake typing away at the computer. I took off work because I thought my sickness would get worse or spread to others if I were there. Anywho I thought I'd share a reproduction painting I did over the summer because I haven't posted it anywhere and I do happen to be proud of it.

Sick

There should be something great to say about having a day off but feeling sick is not fun. I'm sitting thinking about weight loss and my dreams but most of me is wishing I could be working. My one of my fashion icons is Fefe Dobson. She looks so thin and healthy.



I bought a dress to lose weight to fit into properly I was hoping that I'd be able to fit into it by my birthday but it looks like Christmas might be the time.


Something to note: Even though I feel like I can wear more sexy dresses I shouldn't do that every time I go out. I thought I was going to a club this weekend not a concert lounge. I felt so uncomfortable in my club dress. Luckily I had a blazer on that covered up everything. It was the worst experience in a dress ever. I need to invest in more going out pants. I want to make some distressed sparkly jeans. It might be really cute.

My clothes that I bought in August are starting to be too big. I think I should buy more small/medium clothes instead of a specific number size... I just don't want to be wasting money with clothes if I'm going to be hopefully dropping like 4 more sizes.

Feeling Moody

I didn't work out yesterday.. I walked around and shopped. I was in a terrible mood and shopping usually helps with my moods. Probably avoided the gym so I wouldn't have to talk to people but I should have exercised at home. Today, I'm feeling especially irritable and feel a cold coming on. I'm supposed to be going to a conference tonight but I'm not sure if my body is up to it. It's probably all the snacks I've been eating instead of real meals trying to convince myself that it isn't ok to eat Subway daily and eat other stuff. I should have just ate Subway because I was making good choices there. My grocery shopping was a bomb because I didn't even buy enough stuff to last a week. The thing I really wanted to buy was at the sell by date and I wasn't going to chance it. Grrr.... I didn't even step on the scale this morning because I was having a bad morning.