Feeling Moody

I didn't work out yesterday.. I walked around and shopped. I was in a terrible mood and shopping usually helps with my moods. Probably avoided the gym so I wouldn't have to talk to people but I should have exercised at home. Today, I'm feeling especially irritable and feel a cold coming on. I'm supposed to be going to a conference tonight but I'm not sure if my body is up to it. It's probably all the snacks I've been eating instead of real meals trying to convince myself that it isn't ok to eat Subway daily and eat other stuff. I should have just ate Subway because I was making good choices there. My grocery shopping was a bomb because I didn't even buy enough stuff to last a week. The thing I really wanted to buy was at the sell by date and I wasn't going to chance it. Grrr.... I didn't even step on the scale this morning because I was having a bad morning.

In love with Exercise

I'm really loving taking group classes. It's kind of sad that I was so nervous about trying it in the first place. Zumba is one of the best kinds of cardio possible and now I'm trying step aerobics so that should be fun too. Monday I'm thinking about trying another dance cardio class. I still have to find time for my runs and I think if I can push myself I should be able to run on the days I'm only taking one class or when I'm not taking any.

Food Wise: I've gone two days without dairy completely and it feels pretty good. I'm having cheese with my low carb spaghetti on sunday. I'm suppose to be visiting my boyfriend's family. Let's hope I don't get derailed from good eating. I'll come up with a plan so that doesn't happen.

Updates

So yes they are creepy at my gym. I upgraded my membership so I could workout at both gyms but mainly to take Zumba whenever I want. I went last night and I'm back tonight. I ran 1.33 miles on the treadmill on monday besides doing my normal workout. I really need to make sure I always wear the right sports bra because I think I could have run longer if my body wasn't jiggling so much.

I'm thinking about cutting cheese out of my diet. I'm not sure if I will but I might limit my intake of it because I really would like to figure out if cutting it out will help my body feel healthier. I've already cut out pretty much all other dairy except adding greek yogurt. I love putting cheese on so much stuff that it is going to be interesting to see outcomes if I'm limiting what I'm eating. I really would like to know what I could do better.

Also, is there a limit really to how much exercising you can do in one day? Personal trainers and instructors condition themselves to exercise all the time. Why can't a regular person do that? If I were able to get my body really healthy with good activities I shouldn't have a problem with fearing that weight might creep back on. The new gym has racquetball and other sports. I might find someone to play with. Maybe I will become crazy about a sport like I love Zumba. I'm going to try a Step class before Zumba so this will be interesting. Definitely need to keep my energy up.

Another thing I want to note: I've been having doubts that I actually looked different from the weight loss because my before and after pictures to me both look great. Last night, however I came across a real fat defining moment:


Way different to how I look now! And that picture was while I had already lost some weight.

Getting lost in the work out

So on thursday I freaked out again because the creepy personal trainer kept staring at me. I came up with a plan to find out if he is really being creepy or whether I'm just being paranoid. I ended up leaving because I was so upset about being stared at and talked about to the new attendant like that while I was on the elliptical. My shoes were too big because I accidentally left my regular shoes at work. I wore a pair I used to wear all the time before I lost weight. They are now a half size too big. I just couldn't work out like that. It was only a half hour.

When I went back to the gym yesterday I was determined to get my full workout and I did even though I was creeped out when I first walked in. The attendant was like OOOOOoooh I remember you in this sexual sort of voice and I was so glad I had a hooded sweatshirt on because I didn't want to be stared down right as I'm coming in. I went directly to the back room that was empty and started my workout. It was such a relief but then I just got lost in my workout and did the whole thing without feeling self conscious anymore. I don't know if the creepy personal trainer not being there had anything to do with it but it was a really good workout.

I have a feeling I'm not going to lose any weight this week but I'm happy that I'm still exercising.



I'm wearing this dress tonight to go out dancing. I'm a little nervous because I've never worn a dress with cutouts before but I'm excited. I'm going to get some boots or wear heels with it tonight.

zumba and not sure what to do.

I love my Zumba class but I'm starting to think some of the people at my gym are creeping me out. I know I pay attention to everything but it is hard to work out when you feel like you have many people staring at you. I'm pretty self conscious about working out because don't like my body jiggling so much. Now, I could understand if it was a few glances here or there but every single time I'm on the treadmill or elliptical you take out your cellphone as if you are taking a picture or texting someone. Extremely strange. I'm still going to exercise but I feel like I need to notify someone if it really gets weird.

2.5 hours so far this week for exercising. I'm planning on exercising at home tomorrow because I have things to do. My biceps are starting to show more. I'm kind of excited about that. It would be cool if they stay defined. My triceps are also looking smaller too. My thighs and stomach are where I really need to build some muscle. I don't need chiseled abs but I would like a really flat stomach. I keep thinking about Kim Kardashian's waist and Usain Bolt's speed!!

New Goals

I still have a long way to go but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. My goals are simple. It's to make it through this week with all the extra work I need to complete. I don't think I'll be able to make it to Zumba this week but I would like to. I have to still work out. I would like to run at least 5 miles this week on the treadmill and then also do more miles on the elliptical. If I can't do Zumba on Tuesday maybe I can make up for it this weekend when I'm supposed to go out dancing.


(The picture is from me over the weekend trying on a dress. I'm going to try and use more photos to keep a better log of how I look).

Running on the treadmill

Dear people that think you can't run on the treadmill,

I can happen. If there practice it can happen. I really always thought that the treadmill was going to be off limits to me. I ran on the treadmill both yesterday and the day before. If someone had told me at the beginning of my weight loss that I'd be running on the treadmill at like 6.7 as my max I would have laughed at them because I thought it couldn't be me. I'm going to practice running more consistently (meaning a steady rate rather than pushing myself to the limit in speed and taking it down to a jog). I don't know but I am really proud. I wasn't even going to attempt running on the treadmill but for some reason the elliptical machines were occupied. I really can see a 5K in my future if I just continue working out in general.

Sincerely,

Me


(In other news. I'm hoping my weight will go down again this week because I did go to Zumba before I did my treadmill, elliptical, and weight training workout. I am eating broccoli as the entree for my lunch today but I have other things packed too. Let's just keep it going)