Err

I tried on my shorts that I wore for the vacation in december and I couldn't breathe. I need to get over myself and just eat correctly. I need to save money anyway so I can make all these purchases from Japan. I estimate that on an average workday I spend 20 to 30 on food so I'm spending at least 100 to 150 on food a week. That just doesn't work for me I could buy a dress a week if I made a giant healthy meal and ate it for an entire week with slight variations. 

I'm redoing my wardrobe to really be more about Japanese fashion. Also to have nicer things in general. I bought designer costume jewelry and have been practicing my makeup. Hopefully I'll do something about my hair. It was looking cute for a long while and then I just gave up.

I canceled my gym membership but I still use the gym at my place. I'm trying to devise a plan of entertainment while I'm on the elliptical machine so I will be motivated to stay on it for like 40minutes. Pandora isn't cutting it for me. I tried to use my phone to play a YouTube movie but it didn't work. I will figure out something. I want to watch Naruto while at the gym. There are so many episodes I will have enough to last me like an entire summer. I just need to figure out how to make it work. 

This picture was taken Wednesday. My face is looking puffy again. I need to take more photos to keep track of where I'm going.

157

I'm working out how I want to lose weight. I hit 162 at the beginning of the week and freaked out. I told myself I never wanted to go back into the obese category and I did. Right now I'm extremely overweight and feel like I should be happy with it but I would rather but closer to normal. I was debating whether I should renew my membership at the gym since Zumba hasn't been helping me lose weight. This week it did. I don't really want to pay that price to continue my weight loss. There is more to life than just walking on a treadmill and dancing in a Zumba class. Maybe I will have someone to exercise with on a regular basis in the future. Right now my goals are to exercise for a least 30 minutes a day. I didn't technically do that yesterday but I did walk around the mall for hours with my sore legs. My schedule is in disarray from this night class I'm taking but I will prevail. I'm going to put my health first. When I saw my weight in the 60s I thought about the health problems of being overweight. I don't want to be sluggish.

Swinging

I don't know what exactly is stressing me out but its been affecting my eating. I started gravitating towards junk again. I'm feeling like I just need to step back and look at how much I've accomplished in terms of my weight loss and give myself a break. I don't know. I was doing well on my challenge but not losing weight. My pants are fitting more loosely though so that's a plus. I should eat a lean meat for breakfast to keep myself on track everyday.

Eh

Feeling alright. I tried on some clothes that were tight before and now they are a little breathable. I didn't end up using the grill but there are a lot of grilling foods on sale this week. The possibility is there. Now, I'm going to try running on the treadmill again and seeing if I will be less sore. I'm hoping to do the treadmill and two days of Zumba at least. Sigh.

If salad makes you thin

If salad makes you thin than I'm all for it. I've been eating salad and feeling more content with myself. I know there is the notion that skinny girls don't eat salad but honestly I don't care because at least it's working for me right now with feeling good about myself. I want to cook the chicken meals I've been thinking about. Hopefully when I get home I will make time to cook I took the cooking time to clean stuff or I knocked out sleeping. My legs are still sore and I did not work out last night. Maybe this really means if I want to see improvement that I should add running in every week with Zumba.

So sore

I did about 20 minutes of weight yesterday after doing an hour of Zumba. I'm so sore. I was sore during Zumba and I was even sore laying in bed. It's going to be a long day. I ate we'll too but I'm not sure I'm going to lose weight with me body feeling this sore. It's been a long time since I've had a sore week at the gym

Yes

I didn't really want to go to the gym yesterday but I went and actually had a great time. I did 2 miles on the treadmill in 24 minutes. I was actually pretty proud of myself considering I haven't been on the treadmill in a while. People were staring at me but I'm used to it. I looked in the mirror to see what they were looking at and laughed. Hopefully I will be able to do the 3rd mile soon. I also ate pretty healthy except my dinner. But even that wasn't really bad. I need to look for that swimsuit I really wanted to wear. People keep telling me to get a two piece but the way I was treated when I wasn't wearing the cover up with it was depressing. If I can maintain being in the low 140s in like June or may I will get a new bikini otherwise I'm getting a flattering but stylish one piece. Also at this point I don't even care if its expensive. I just want to look good.