Blaze

Last night I went to the gym to try another gym class. It was about dancing so I didn't know if it was going to be more complicated than Zumba. It was just as fun if not more. I had a hard time in the beginning but picked up things quickly with some of the routines being the same from Zumba. I can't wait for Zumba tonight. I need to remember to still lift weights. I find it pretty interesting how most of these pay per training session Personal Trainers at my gym don't seem to want to talk to you if it's not about them making money. Now that I don't feel anxious wondering if the Personal Trainer hound me I can work out at that gym more. I should have sent the text message declining the sessions earlier. It didn't dawn on me that I could send a text. The trainer makes such a good pitch it's hard to decline by talking.

We will see about my weight. I'm nervous. I've been eating low carb pasta the past couple days and we will see if it's actually low carb because it sure doesn't feel high fiber even though it says it on the box.

Zumba zumba zumba

I feel like I need to dance thinking of those words. Last night was awesome in ways and shocking in others. As some of you may notice if you look at my table for the weight loss, I am creeping closer and closer to the goal. I have a ways to go but I'm well over the half way mark. I'm 66% done. I wear shorts everyday to the gym and last night was no exception. This woman and her friend were looking at my legs. The woman says, "I really hope my legs don't look like that" and started rubbing her legs. At first I was really offended until I realized I hope my legs don't stay looking like that. I worked out harder than I've ever worked out at Zumba.

Injured my toe

I totally injured my toe by my gym shoes being now too big for my feet! My toenail is broken in half.. it looks so gross. I think I need to up my vitamin e and d--- Sigh. I bought Asics last night so I could workout today. When I remember to take a picture, I will. Also, in a mission to try to save money which totally failed-- I'm starting to take steamed vegetables as the main part of my lunch. It bombed because I took my boyfriend to dinner and it cost more than what I normally spend on groceries for the week. Sigh. Any way, I'll continue to eat vegetables but I think I'm going to see about putting chicken in my lunch.

Zumba Yay!!

I did Zumba last night even though I wasn't sure that I'd actually be able to make it through the whole thing. It felt good and I had a lot of fun. I actually felt like I was supposed to be there rather than just laying about! It was one of the most awesome feelings thus far of the weight loss. People where asking how I've been and why I hadn't been to class. I kind of felt like I can keep going and that I'm not failing at this. Also, I was shocked at how many moves I remember not being there for 2 weeks straight! The new routines rocked.

154. Slowly but ok

Really starting to feel better. It's a slow process I guess. I weighed in this morning at 153.9... I'm rounding up to 154 but it's pretty awesome to see my weight going down. I was really starting to wonder if I was meant to be in the Normal BMI range. I had my pesto tuna and broccoli yesterday... It seems whenever I eat the combination of broccoli and tuna I seem to lose weight. I need some better uses for broccoli. I hate always eating it steamed. I wonder what broccoli tacos taste like.

Anywho, I've also realized my stressing about people's feelings is not getting me anywhere but stressed. If they really care about you they are actually there and don't just let things fade away. Recently I've been thinking about how I still have a tendency to put people's feelings before my own in the sake of keeping things flowing smoothly for everyone not necessarily myself. I really need to let go of the feeling of trying to please people. I've talked about this before. It's not a fat person thing even though there are many obese and over weight people who let people walk on them.

If I can make it to 145 by December I would be pretty happy about that. My weight loss is going on a good track even though I bug out from time to time.

thought it was over

I really thought the dizziness would have subsided but it hasn't. Hopefully, I will hear soon from the doctor to figure out what the next step is. This is a little ridiculous. If I can manage going to the gym I will. Maybe just using the exercise bike or something.

bugging out

I put on my shorts to go to the gym yesterday because I feel like I'm missing the gym and I never made it out! I ended up having the bronchitis-like cough until I forfeited... "You win you win body (bows). I guess I will not be exercising yet again". Sigh. I'm surely going to gain weight this week. I was trying to walk around at least so I would not feel that bad for not working out but I was coughing everywhere. Gross! At least my nails look good. I did them last night when I was just laying there. I also made stovetop popcorn. It tastes better than microwave popcorn a little. Next time I make it I'm going to use olive oil (I used canola oil).