144.2

Bah. I haven't been eating well. I was doing better with losing weight not going to Zumba because I was spending more time in the kitchen and grocery. Today I'm going to revisit my healthy food list and go shopping. I started eating like my roommate and it's costing me big time. I've also started having nightmares again about my relationship issues that I haven't been able to talk to anyone about. I can't wait for my break to start so I can focus on losing weight rather than trying to just keep myself just under 140. I haven't eaten enough vegetables. TOM is giving me headaches  but I think I need to drink more water again too. I went traveling over the weekend and didn't bring anything but art supplies so I probably dehydrated myself. Alcohol is a big no go too. I thought having a couple drinks with my roommate might not be so bad but don't think it helped at all with the weight loss.

The only bright side to this week is that my weekend was fun. I will need to just eat better all the time.

141.6

Yes! It's going back down! Zumba last night, salmon for dinner, spinach and spaghetti meat sauce for lunch... Yesterday was a good eating day despite that I ate 2 large cookies-- strawberry shortcake. I want to keep going down so I can wear my catsuit soon. Thinking about buying the shorts version to it. My sister suggested opaque or patterned tights

142.6

Well staying under 140 didn't last very long at all. Yesterday I was 141.6 now I'm creeping up. Hopefully I can make it go back down although my eating until I was stuffed like a penguin didn't help matters too much. I got so irritated. I made all this food and he only ate like half a bowl of the stuff and complained about how I made it while he was just sitting there like a bump on a log asking when it was going to be finished. So I ate the pasta and then I ate his too. Mine was with 3 cups of spinach and his was plain. This is the low carb/high fiber pasta. I'm not sure I'm actually buying the low carb part but it tasted great. I should have just saved his plate to take for work instead of annoyingly eating it. Sigh. I still have meat/sauce left but I think I also ran out of spinach so I'll be running to the grocery. I'm never doing that again. Last time I made alfredo it was the same situation of me eating like that. Everything is so much better when he cooks or I just cook for myself because I won't get annoyed. I'm sitting here with a headache. Bah humbug! My stomach is pouched right now so I know my weight is not going down for a bit.

139.6

I weighed in this morning at 139.6 so maybe I'm back on the right track. I've been alone for the past week and was able to lose a bit but let's see what happens now that I'm not going to be eating by myself all the time. Hmmm. Hopefully it will turn out right because I would like to be at or under 130 by the end of June.

Zumba and George Foreman

I'm been up and down mostly because my eating isn't that great to the only greens and lean meats regimen but I'm doing fairly well. I really could have been gaining with all the junk I've been eating but I guess it's balancing out. I went to Zumba so far 3 times this week without having to take the pain medicine for the knee. Maybe this means that soon I'll be doing regular weight training in my office again on my break. I want to be really good again. My weight was 142 yesterday but my stomach was flat this morning so I think it actually went down a little. I've been having trouble keeping up my water intake-- it's been about 3 bottles of water a day maybe instead of like 4 with some seltzer water. I'm trying not to eat bacon because I read an article about how bacon can hold you back from losing weight. I also haven't eaten the m&m's and doritos but I did eat sugar free reeses. I wince every time I look at the saturated fat for them so I try to eat less than the serving size.

George Foreman: I used my George Foreman today to make about 4 pounds of chicken which I hope will last me a bit (because I'm all about no cooking if I don't have to).. I'll use it to make "tacos"(my concoction of healthy stuff that kind of tastes like a taco), maybe with spinach and reduced fat cheese, or maybe just by itself. I'm not really sure. I know that chicken does taste good though. I haven't been by trader joe's to pick up the foods I only buy from there like the shredded cabbage, roasted seaweed, and stuff like that. I need to start eating more of the seaweed because it's low in calories, tastes good, and makes me feel like I ate a bag of chips not leafy green goodness.

Zumba: It has been an awkward 3 days of Zumba. Normally I have a lot of fun but I'm really noticing how different I am to everyone else in the class. When I look at myself in the mirror and then see what everyone is doing I feel like I'm maybe putting to much effort into making it look more like dance with the workout still there even though I think that what everyone is supposed to be doing anyway. A lady got super mad with me yesterday I guess because she thought I was going to take her spot. I just like being almost in the corner but still able to see the teacher. I don't laugh a lot like most of the women joking around in the routines. I always try to perform the moves with more flavor each time instead of playing. Not sure if I should lighten up, or just keep going like I am. It would be nice to have more positive acquaintances in the class but I' have a goal of getting smaller. If I play around I know some of my workout time would be wasted. Meh.

What am I doing?

My weight hasnt changed much but I did go to the gym 3 days this past week. I had to force myself on saturday because I stayed up all night doing my hair and did not want to sweat out the hairstyle. I need to blog more regularly because it helps me focus and stay accountable. I'm such a culprit of sneaking tons of bad food. This whole living with another person thing is not what I'd thought it be. I need to do some real grocery shopping for healthy food. I don't know why I can't just stick to the plan of eating massive amounts of vegetables and healthy food. I supplied a before and current to hopefully give myself some motivation to keep going because I seriously want to have abs.