I know

I know my official weigh in is tomorrow morning but I was happy to see my weight went back up to 139 after eating at IHOP. My friends and brother took me out to celebrate the free pancake day. I didn't even eat half of what I ordered but I'm happy my weight went up a little. I want to lose the right way! I felt more energy after eating. I know pancakes weren't in the phase one of south beach but i used sugar free syrup and didn't use syrup at all for the first pancake. Also, I had eggs, cheese, with turkey bacon. My sugar levels didn't feel like they spiked. It just felt like a good meal.

137.4

I think I might need a serious intervention if I keep dropping like this. My heart still hurts. I tried eating and felt like I was going to vomit but didn't (thankfully). I miss him so much and I hate how it taking a toll on my health but it's hard to force myself to eat.

140.2

Still hurting. I hate that I've been losing in the wrong way the past couple days. My mind doesn't care for food at all. I just feel like I'm losing everything right now. I will try to go back to normal eating because I can't harm my body-- I have real goals. I want to be in the Hello Kitty Bikini not in the hospital.

141.3 So hurt

This weight isn't even valid. I stopped eating after my relationship of 3.6years ended yesterday. I couldn't drink or eat... everything just stopped. I feel so hurt right now. It doesn't even feel like today should be happening. I'm under so much stress right now that I want to curl up in a ball. My MRI just happened and I'm hoping it's good news even though it was a painful process.

143.2

I have to say getting good sleep really does help. I'm not sure I had enough to drink but taking seltzer water with me to work feels like it help out a lot. I'm excited to see the number drop. No zucchini yet. I might try zucchini chips instead so I could possibly have taco nachos maybe?

144.0 lbs

Yay! Anywho, I drank a lot more water yesterday and had a lot more fiber. I need to work on getting better sleep. It was better last night but I think it could even be better. I need long and good sleep.

145.2

I think I need more fiber in my diet. I have flaxseeds in my refrigerator that I could start using and I will look up some more. My dinner last night was great tilapia and broccoli. I ended up still feeling hungry so I also had eggs and bacon. I'm wondering if that is what tipped the scale up (eating too much for dinner). I was not going to go to bed hungry. I guess we will see. I had broccoli and peanuts for breakfast and its the same for lunch. I think I might have tilapia again tonight. I also need to work on my exercise regimen.