Friday, December 9, 2016


35-36? Minutes on the elliptical. Omg today was really difficult. I just didn't have the energy. No gym this weekend but I may do something at home. I bought some instant oatmeal bowls and a quarter watermelon to eat. I have some bananas too. I might go to subway it just depends on how I feel. Yesterday I don't think I ate much protein. 

Thursday, December 8, 2016


36 minutes on the elliptical. I think I need to improve my nutrition. Yesterday I finally figured out what subway's calorie count meant and I ate some sour dough pretzels. I shouldn't have. They were 100 calories per pretzel and provided little nutrition. I feel like maybe tomorrow I will bring my weights to work to lift during my lunch break. Not sure.

Wednesday, December 7, 2016


35 minutes on the elliptical. I was watching this anime called RWBY. It's turning out to be a pretty good series. I had to force myself for the 35 minutes because my body was trying to be like no but I knew I could get it done! Working today on eating more vegetables. I was watching youtube videos and looking at tumblr for weight loss inspiration. I don't think I want to solely focus on weight loss because I want to be more than just someone losing weight. Anyway I'm excited that I'm sticking to it. I just have to figure out a plan for the holidays. 

Tuesday, December 6, 2016


I just did thirty something minutes at the gym. I decided it's better off if I just try everyday. I think I'll be more consistent if I just try every day. I'm going to figure out where to add in weight training and I also am going to figure out a better anime to watch while exercising. I read back on my old posts and I definitely can get into the groove of things if I just plan better. I actually laid an outfit out before I got in the shower to prep. If I can prep some vegetable meals I might be in business. My kids don't really like when I'm out of the room too long so it will either have to be like a prep for a few days or prep after they sleep. 

I ordered more fancy workout clothes! It definitely means I'm going to be downsizing my crappy fat clothes but at least I will feel cool to myself for the first time in a long while. Need to do something about my hair though. 

Monday, December 5, 2016


I didn't make any excuses and just did 15 minutes on the elliptical. I'm feeling drenched in sweat right now. I need to change my shirt and go about my business. It feels good to feel like I'm accomplishing something. I was looking around the gym thinking it might be better if I do weights but I know I can consistently use the cardio machines so I should just start using free weights on my lunch break. This can work!!! 

Saturday, December 3, 2016


So I was 216 something at the beginning of the week. I need to continue changing my mindset about how I'm going to do this to just try to be consistent with exercising and just not giving into wanting to rest because I've had a long drive or because I'm mentally drained from what was going on with life. I think I'm going to just try to keep moving. I finally bought exercise pants this morning by sneaking out (the kids were being watched) to have like an hour and a half to myself. I bought enough pairs to wear for work. I probably should of gotten the fancy gym pants but I went for a mix of both the expensive pants and the cheap pants. I feel proud of myself for finally accomplishing towards putting myself first. I was working out in my regular clothes all week.

I think I need to clean up my life. I've been reading and watching videos about minimalism. It's about darn time. If I can find a way to exercise when I thought I couldn't I can find a way to declutter my belongings and relieve the stress of owning so many things to clean and store. I want to have more money to just do the things I want to do like traveling. I'm pretty frugal as it is but I have been wanting to take more trips to just experience the world during my free time. Having babies is not an excuse to not travel. 

Friday, December 2, 2016


So a lot has happened in my life. My mom passed away and it just feels like I need to get back on my weight loss track for good. I was really depressed and started just eating everything. I didn't think my mother would pass for such a long time. It was so sudden. My grandmother had just passed literally a month before her. My weight feels out of control and I know I have trigger foods. It's Chick-Fil-A and IHOP and anything else with oil and sugar. I thought I would do well by ordering the kids menu and just feel okay with eating it a little but it honestly went back to eating the regular menu because I justified wanting a regular size drink of unsweet tea. I kind of feel like I'm on my own in ways because I really just really hate looking at myself in pictures and in the mirror. Its like why did I change myself to be convenient to everyone. Like life just doesn't go my way anyway so why make it worse? I used to not eat bread. I used to eat breakfast with vegetables before I went to work. I used to enjoy life because dinner was just a meal and not some whole ordeal because things were kind of planned out. I just need to create some normalcy and really just put myself first. My health has declined since my pregnancy started (my twins are now 1 1/2) and with all the stress I feel like I've put on myself it's not going to get better.

I think I need to go back to thinking about the things I want to eat and the things I want to do so here let's make a list of the things that I want to eat and do:

Run on the treadmill: Make it to a 10 minute mile.
Eat nutrient rich foods like clean eating.
Spend more time out of the house enjoying the world.
Drink more water.
Feel good when I look in the mirror.
Not have as many chores to do because my apartment is decluttered.

None of these things honestly have to do with weight loss but I know weight loss will happen if I work towards my goals. I just need to set up like objectives for me to meet to help reach each one. I already have been finding ways to workout in my schedule but my eating sucked so yeah no weight loss.