Yes

I didn't really want to go to the gym yesterday but I went and actually had a great time. I did 2 miles on the treadmill in 24 minutes. I was actually pretty proud of myself considering I haven't been on the treadmill in a while. People were staring at me but I'm used to it. I looked in the mirror to see what they were looking at and laughed. Hopefully I will be able to do the 3rd mile soon. I also ate pretty healthy except my dinner. But even that wasn't really bad. I need to look for that swimsuit I really wanted to wear. People keep telling me to get a two piece but the way I was treated when I wasn't wearing the cover up with it was depressing. If I can maintain being in the low 140s in like June or may I will get a new bikini otherwise I'm getting a flattering but stylish one piece. Also at this point I don't even care if its expensive. I just want to look good.

Lowering my stress

I think if I were able to lower my stress levels I might be eating better. I need to make sure my wants are not pushed to the back burner. I was thinking about how I keep doing for others while pushing aside the things I want to do. My goals are just as important as their wants. They don't necessarily need my help or presence to do whatever.

I think I will be buying an expensive swim suit so I can have one that really fits. It doesn't make sense to work myself into a suit if there is already one that will make me look awesome I just have to spend a little more.

My breakfast this morning was green peas and unsweetened ice tea. Hoping to have salad for lunch or tuna. Then grilled or baked chicken for dinner.

Goal this week

1. Exercise a couple times.
2. Use my George foreman at least once.
3. Eat lean meat at least once per day.
4. Drink lots of water to see if my skin will start clearing up.

Ugh

Nothing like trying on a dress in your closet and being too big for it when you fit it. I don't know why I keep kicking myself while I'm already down about my weight. I've actually been eating decently the past couple days. I kind of wanted to cry though honestly.

Sigh

I need to stop eating grains. If I don't stop I will start ballooning. It's rather annoying my lack of self-control. I'm not sure when I will learn but I have to try.

Meh

I'm not really losing right now. I threw myself off track with eating too much at the tea party. As long as I can make it into the 140s or high 130s by August I'll be alright.

152.6

I'm actually pretty thrilled considering I thought was going to gain a lot considering how much I ate. I had grilled salmon tacos with beans with the tortilla part and a large salad when I hung out with my friends. I want proud of myself for being able to pick healthy choices.