199.4

Alright so I decided for sure that I'm really going to do this thing even if I don't like my body in the end. My children are going to be better off with a healthy happy mom than one the wants to sulk in a corner because she has a negative body image and feels like nothing can be done. I just have to try. I never thought having twins would cause me to gain 95 pounds. I'm down a lot but I would like to lose quite a lot more before I have to go back to work. My ultimate goal is to be back at 140lbs but right now the short term goal is to get to 190lbs. I'm not cleared for exercise yet and my incision still hurts sometimes to its going to be a long road. I'm going to try to be optimistic about this weight loss.